Reminded

Just being reminded tonight about the things that really matter...and how awesome God is.

I'm so thankful. I can't even begin to make a list.

God is good!

Things that matter.

I'm having one of those nights.

The kind where something that doesn't really matter goes wrong and you over-react and can't get yourself pulled back together.

I threw a toy at the toy bin tonight. And missed. And our toy-bin is right below the tv. Do you see where this is going?

Needless to say I'm feeling
-lazy, seriously I couldn't just walk the toy over.
-stupid, really you're going to use your left hand when you're a terrible shot with your right.
-frustrated, because of course I keep enough money lying around to just buy new tvs whenever the urge strikes.
-like a terrible wife, the one thing the hubs loves more than me (kidding) is sports. And it's playoff baseball time folks. And college football. And NFL. So basically, I suck.

And of course he (the hubs) is being super awesome about it. "It doesn't really matter.", "Things happen", "Don't be so upset, we'll get a new one in a little bit."

But I just keeping crying over it.

Seriously, when people I know are going through things that really matter- I'm crying over a broken tv.

Yep.

I guess I am that shallow.

On a sidenote, at least the 2 year old is as upset as I am. "Mommy. Broke. It.", "Bye-Bye Zaboo." So I'm also a terrible, stupid, lazy mother.

What a night. A good night's sleep will hopefully fix these INSANE preggo hormones.

It's just a tv for crying out loud. I didn't break my kid! ;)

Single

After today, I am so grateful that I'm not a single parent. And I have so much more sympathy (or is it empathy?) for those who are.

Daddy is on a boys 'beer and football' weekend in Eastern Washington with his best friend- totally earned and deserved.

But after working every day this week and Friday being payday, that means I only have the weekend to squeeze in all my 'weekly' chores. Thankfully (please sense the sarcasm in that), Pumpkin Pie likes to wake up early. So I was able to pay bills, clean the whole house, get two hours of work in at The Farm, do laundry- including diapers, stop by the ATM, and run errands at Target, Costco, Winco, Stride Rite, and Verizon.

Oh, and I did all of that with Pumpkin Pie in tow.

It took seventeen hours.

I think I deserve a medal and that it should all count as a workout.

I'm so pooped.

And glad that Daddy is rarely gone for an entire weekend.

And leaning even more towards not wanting the full-time job.

How do real single parents do it?! I'm impressed!

One month later

I've had so much to say in the last month but its almost been like I had too much to say and couldn't put it into words. But now I'm at the point where I have to get it out.

We're no longer TTC because we are pregnant!! We're due in mid-March and keeping the secret just about killed me.

This pregnancy is similar and yet so different from Pumpkin Pie. I've been nauseous a lot again but this time I tried vitamin B6 and it helped a lot. I haven't thrown up once...yet...although I still get waves where I think I might not be able to keep it together. And trust me, I've fought hard for the "no puking" award.

I've also been way more emotional this time...mostly because I've waited so long for this and am so excited and grateful we get to do this again. I watch Pumpkin and get all teary-eyed because there will soon be two. I've gone from never wanting kids of my own to being so grateful for every moment with my little guy and the prospect of a sibling.

School (a.k.a. work) has started back up and I've been super busy. My daycare lady from last year isn't available this year so I'm looking for new options. And not finding anything that sits well with my mommy's heart. I need 'Grandma' Netti back! There is also the possibility of a full-time position opening up at 'my' school and of me being hired for it.

My heart has never been torn like this before. I've prayed for as long as I can remember for a passion and a job- and now I have it...and it comes when I feel like God has given me two callings and I can't have both. I can't work for a pay check full-time, at a job I love, and parent my child like I want to. I'm trusting God day-by-day now to guide each step and take care of my heart and babies. He has a plan and I trust Him whole-heartedly.

Weight Loss Wednesday...week 9? 10?

Yep- I've got one more week of "summer" so my brain is still there. And I totally lost my momentum so I never remember to weigh myself any more.

I'm almost all caught up on the Bible reading. I plan on being on track Sept 1 (just 3 days a way!).

I ran again, successfully, on Monday. Still loving the treadmill.

And then got some sort of stomach bug that didn't involve throwing up. If you get me drift. Finally, feeling better today and planning on hitting the treadmill (or weights) in the morning!

Short and sweet- Pumpkin should be awake any minute:)

Poop

Yesterday, Pumpkin Pie dropped a deuce while playing outside naked.

Today, he picked up dog poop and proceed to explain to me that, "Ewww! Icky poo-poos!"

Needless to say- bath time promptly followed! And hand sanitizer!

WLW- week??

Hahahahaha! Isn't this how it goes? You establish a really great routine/rhythm and then life happens.

I can't remember the last time I worked out, or read my bible. Ugh.

It's not like it was years ago, just sometime last week but I haven't been keeping track like I was. That seems to be key for me.

A couple of things happened. Really, they are just excuses and I could have kept going but obviously I didn't. It's okay. I'll get back to it soon.

1) It got HOT. I don't do well in the heat. Period. I got a few early morning runs/walks in but in general I opted for other forms of activity. I did get LOTS of yard work done. And painting.

2) I've been putting off a major project all summer long and now it's do or die. Our church nursery NEEDS to be painted SO BAD. So I've been taking Pumpkin Pie with me every morning and getting a couple hours in. Then home for lunch and nap. And it's all been ceiling and upper half of wall, so my shoulders neck have really been getting a workout.

3) Once again I've been wasting WAY too much time on facebook. I hate realizing that I just spent another hour (or two) on my computer literally doing nothing. Not working on my shutterfly projects, not emailing people I miss, not connecting intentionally with others. Just wandering and wasting my life.

4) I got really busy besides #2. Farm. Babysitting. Family events. Baby showers. So much stuff.

I'm excited to share my "school year schedule" with you soon (just a few more details to workout). Yes. I AM type A and that will be very apparent. But it's getting me all excited and I'm realizing more and more how much I love having an almost-2 year old. I can't believe I'm saying this but looking at my schedule, I think I would actually enjoy being just a stay-at-home-mom. I just need to figure out how to make some monies doing it! Or have someone pay off our student loans or mortgage. Know anyone who is in the business of helping people that way? LOL!