Wednesday, January 25, 2012

More than you can bear?

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28

"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

"Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2

Just some verses I'm holding onto tonight. The last 3 nights have been the worst nights we've ever had with Griffin. His cough has had him waking up every 10-20 minutes. I'm so sleep-deprived. I'm an emotional wreck with a super short temper. I need my kid to sleep. More than need. I'm desperate. 

So the first verse, I'm crawling on my face to God, holding onto the promise that his burden is light. That God will teach me, gently and humbly, how to teach my son how to sleep all night. And in his own bad. 

The second verse, I'm clinging to as well. In my exhaustion and anger I am tempted to do so many things I know I'll regret. Like yell at Griff, shake him, or lock him in his room until he figures it out- no matter how many years that takes! Things that when I'm not dealing with exhaustion induced anger I wouldn't even consider. 

The third verse...I don't even know how to ask for help with this. I don't know how to help Griffin at night. Ryan doesn't know. I don't know how to let others help carry this burden of a sleepless breastfed child. 

Prayers accepted!

Sunday, January 15, 2012


Oh MAN do I have the fever. Baby fever, that is!

Spent the morning in the church nursery with Laura and her newest, baby Luke (and 5 other rugrats).

Another friend is in triage RIGHT NOW, about to have her second sweet little girl!!

And yes, even though I still haven't slept through the night, I want another one. I want Griffin to have a sibling. I want to add to our family, which just doesn't feel complete yet. I want to hear my kids laughing and giggling and playing together. I want to go on family vacations and roadtrips. I want Family movie and game nights. I want to watch my kids play sports and help in their classrooms.

Ack! I'm so excited!!! I don't know if I'll be able to sleep!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


Things have been really rough around here, the little man has been sleeping even worse, if that's possible, and I woke up today and literally cried because I was so tired and he wouldn't go back to sleep. It's not so bad once I get up and moving but still, you get the idea. I only decided to go to MOPS because it was our week to bring food and boy am I glad I went! Because I substitute, I haven't made it very many times this year but when I have I feel like God has arranged it specifically just so I can hear that specific speaker. And today was no exception!

I don't really know what our speaker, Dona Liddle, said BUT this is what I heard:

That I'm allowed to and should parent my unique child in a way specifically designed to suit him, me and our family. And that this probably won't look like what everyone else is or isn't doing. 

And that its okay for me to want people to accept my choices for my kid without judgement. 

So, please do not read into this any judgement of your choices as a parent because quite frankly, this is my blog and its all about me:) I don't have time to worry or really care about how you parent your child(ren)! (As long as its all legal, otherwise I can turn into to quite a momma-bear, even if the kids aren't mine.)

I left today encouraged in my quest to teach the little sleep thief how to sleep on his own, without locking him in a room and letting him cry himself to sleep. And really, the problem isn't getting him to sleep, it's getting him to stay there. The poor guy has grown 1.5 inches in the last 8 weeks and sprouted 3 new teeth, 2 of them  molars- so there's a lot going on. I'm just going to keep doing the best that I can, praying for patience and wisdom and following the leading I hear and feel from above.
God is so great, I love how no problem is too small or insignificant for him. I feel so loved tonight after hearing this message delivered just for me, although I'm sure others got something out of it too:)