IDK

I don't know what I'm feeling tonight.

Sad.

Frustrated.

Impatient.

Hurt.

Sorry.

I don't like this waiting on God's timing.

I am being so incredibly challenged by The Peacemaker and other bloggers (especially (recently) this post by Missy).

Half of me wishes I'd never said anything at all. The other half knows it needed to be said- I just f'd it up. So now I get to wait for God to fix it up. And pray. And wait. And wait. And wait.

Wondering what she's feeling...and wondering if she knows we both don't need to be miserable/awkward/strangers.

Just say yes. Just talk to me. Just hear my heart.

Please.